Being Human is Messy

Being human is messy.

I don’t care how spiritual you are, if you don’t know how to be radically human, you’re missing out on the whole point of this journey. Even the ascension journey isn’t solely about ascending to a higher consciousness but about embodying that in human form—and sometimes that requires allowing yourself the messiness of actually feeling human.

I just spent the past two hours driving on the back country roads. It’s been my catharsis this summer—something that was also my favorite thing to do with my person. I didn’t expect that this evening, but I’ve been feeling heavy emotions and needed that release.

So I got in the car, turned the music up, and drove.

It was like I was in a sacred bubble while the sun began to set—surrounded by angels and guided by God as I drove and drove and drove. And I cried and cried and cried, grieving the change, the loss, the transformation of my life as a major chapter closed, as I accepted the goodbye of the people in it.

Acceptance looks an awful lot like surrender, but I think surrender still holds onto hope.

Acceptance is complete. Surrender is faith.

Maybe the two go hand-in-hand.

I’m sitting in my car as I write this—here for just a moment longer. I’d ask for forgiveness for the rawness of this post, but I think I released that, too, tonight—no longer apologizing for the depths of feelings I have and the desire to express them. I don’t ever want to shut this part of myself down.

I wish the world wouldn’t either.

I wish the world would open up and cry, too, so we could all know it’s okay, that we’ll be okay. I wish the world wouldn’t be so afraid to say, “hey, I’ve been here, too.”

I think that’s why I share what I share and how I share it.

Because I wish the world would share its heart, so we could all sit beside each other and love a little harder, a little longer, with a little more realness and rawness and grace.

When we're vulnerable, when we express ourselves, when we're emotionally intimate with one another, we craft the ingredients for healthy bonds and love.

But we can't do it alone.

More love, more expression, more connection.

That’s what the world needs now. This is what we're here for.

(This soul saying was originally published September 16, 2022 by Susan Dawn)